I’m staying up late studying the summer constellations so I can impress my friend and name it before he does when he points them out to me.
haha loser look at you sitting all by yourself at lunch
but mom Im homeschooled
I miss the old-innocent you;new you is lamesauce, monmon:(
I’m posting this just because I’d rather not text you. I can’t stay 15 my whole life, bud. I’m going to get married and have a family someday. You’ve changed as well and that’s why I don’t talk to you anymore. Not only that, but you tend to judge and talk down to me whenever we do. My life is going really well and I would say I’m anything but lamesauce.
I’ve been “forgetting” to take my vitamin lately, because it makes me feel like utter shit, and when I do that, my boyfriend likes to say, “BUT THINK ABOUT CORN…” Or if I’m feeling like devouring the shittiest shit I can get my hands on he says it. I know he cares and that’s why he says it, but I am pretty aware of corn. Corn doesn’t let me forget. Oh, corn…
Just a few features of my anxiety
- Me: *gets on bus* omg everyone is watching me and judging me and they're going to laugh when the bus starts and im not sitting down, omg dont put your ticket in the wrong way or everyone will judge you and laugh at you.
- Me: *goes to pay for shopping* omg what if I dont have enough money? *counts money out 20 times* what if I look stupid, or say the wrong thing? am I standing in the right spot even? What if someone else wants to get past and im in the way, omg.
- Me: *says hey to someone online* omg, they arent replying, holy shit why am I so annoying? what if they tell their friends how annoying and lame I am? Why am I like this, holy shit.
- Me: *meets someone new* What if they dont like me and dont want me to be around, I shouldnt have met them, im going to be a burden, they're probably critisizing me right now, why am I the way I am?